Hi Everyone! I know that no one is reading this but anyways... 

I am an AVID fan of Chun Ella and actually, I COULD die if CE isn't here with me. Recently, My heart bled  (Or shredded into gazillion pieces) because of Ella announcing her engagement to Alvin Lai, a Malaysian guy which... -- I really don't know how they got together. But things... just goes differently right now. Alvin Lai? At first, I thought he is just a stupid jerk, playboy, user, man ape... etc... But actually, right now, I understand things that aren't understood first. CE isn't a false thing. My beloved love team, CE, WAS true (But I'm not sure for it WASN'T CONFIRMED yet.). Maybe... A lot of conflicts came in between them, misunderstood each other then broke up. Like a LOT of CE fans (That are still alive) said, Alvin somehow LOOKS LIKE CHUN.



Looking back on the 2011 days, I remember how I first reacted seeing Alvin's Face. I know I'm slow but I thought: "This Man- Ape (That's how I call him. Personal nickname, no offense.) looks like Wu Zun... maybe..." I trailed off that because I thought Ella wouldn't be so stupid to stay with a guy that IS somewhat like Chun if she doesn't like him.-- That she liked the guy only for his appearance. On second emotion, That's what goes out as the others' conclusion.

Ella... I think that she's quite impatient but is trying to be MORE patient to him. She wants him to not just show her how he loves her. Also to tell (Everyone...?) about them. Don't mind the idol package and the Handsome man advantage. Chun, on the other side... Can't do it. I can't state a specific reason but that's what I think. Maybe he can't because he can't ruin the package but what? He said he's ready to give his all. Maybe because he can't tell anyone about what he feels. No one gives him advices and solutions to problems coming his way. Probably the product of  his mom's death.-- His shyness and closed- mindedness. (Is that the right word? (So stupid. -_-" )) I experienced the same thing myself but not that my parents  (Or mom) died. They are usually away and doesn't have the time to talk to me. I can't tell someone about my feelings. It's either that I'm scared because I might get reprimanded or I'm too nervous because I feel that they'll laugh at me. Like Chun, I'm TOTALLY Shy in front of everyone. And I can't communicate well especially when I feel uncomfortable around everyone. People like us likes expressing ourselves through writing or through our own compositions. (Painting, music, etc...) And that's how Chun plays part with the hints. His hints are QUITE... unusual for people who actually doesn't feel the same way as he is. Like when he's heartbroken, some people doesn't get it.And Ella... She's the WHOLE opposite of Chun. Loud and outgoing, carefree, friendly (I didn't mean that Chun is unfriendly.) and stuff. She HAS lots of people to talk about. Family and friends... and she actually brought it all out. She doesn't need to live with a heavy heart.

2011, Chun left HIM. My conclusion? ALVIN LAI AND ELLA CHEN. Chun wouldn't do that if nothing happened, right? I actually don't believe that it's because of his Family. Since Chun Really has time for his family. Not lots, though.  Maybe it's also a factor but... Why stay away from his brothers?Why stay away from Ella?

I said before that flaws are from couples who are busy.  Yeah. What if? Chun and Ella were together but time keeps on doing things to make them not meet each other that's why they broke up? A lot of possibilities could be stated and we don't know WHAT possibility stated happened to them.

Alvin once liked Hebe. I think Ella should be cautious of that, right? Maybe take it as a threat?  Because maybe Alvin would realize that he still likes Hebe? Or maybe they're using Alvin to keep their relationship or something like that? Or maybe... (accept it...) Ella found perfection in Alvin which she didn't find in Chun... Maybe time, Maybe his effort... maybe... maybe... maybe... and more maybes have gotten into my mind.

But what could I do? I can't control Chun and Ella's life! But... Oh, how I wish I could.  I know that everyone feels quite disappointed even though it's not appropriate for us to be disappointed. I know that everyone is so depressed. and me... I'm feeling that I'm loosing all my interests in life. (except for blogging and sleeping and eating and...)  I know tat I should move on but I simply can't because CE has covered like... 3/4 of my life! and the 1/4 belongs to my life that is like... helluva bad nightmare.

I can't say goodbye. Even if CE dies and I'm still living... I'll love them both. (So much that I'll even influence the future children/ nephews and nieces.)yeah. JIA YOU CE!!! CE wansui!

Now, with the turn of events, (I can't state everything out and I'm too lazy to do it.) I can say... CE is real. (But they haven't proved/ said it yet.)

CE... Had been a big part to others lives. And it hurts me that Ella composed "I Do" For Alvin and not Chun. (WHUT?!) yeah. I need to go now before I cry agan. xD BYE!

and again...

JIA YOU CE, CE WANSUI!

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